I mean, like you just knew that there was a place for you to go and you tried all kinds of ways of getting there but in the end, they just didn’t “fit” you. If we’re being honest with one another – I have – I’ve used the gifts and talents God gave me in various ways and on various platforms. The problem is just because your good at something doesn’t mean that it fits you or it’s what your supposed to be doing.
This is what I was thinking about this morning…here I go throwing my thoughts out on the internet for all to see. I figure though, if I’m thinking about this there might be others thinking about it too. So, maybe what I’ve gone through, am going through, will help others. I know deep in my heart what God has called me to do – maybe you do too – and for awhile I was on my to doing it and it was great -then through a serious of events – some in my control and some outside of it – I stopped doing it.
I think I started hiding from God. Not in the sense that I didn’t talk to Him or believe in Him, but in the sense that I backed off pursing Him and what He had given me a vision for. I think I got scared. I think I had hurts so deep inside that I decided to run from them instead of letting God heal them, transform them and make them shiny and new. I think the enemy lied to me and I believed Him.
I was afraid that by saying yes to what God was holding out in front would mean that I would have to not be there 100% for my family and my marriage. I was afraid that God’s plan would be lonely. But, silly me, that would never be God’s plan. I don’t really know what I was thinking, I guess. So, now – I have to dig my heels in, refused to be moved and get moving, blindly trusting Him to work it all out. The vision. The marriage and the family. (P.S. my husband is a wonderful man….don’t want to give you the wrong idea. We just have different spiritual beliefs. However he is and always has been 135% supportive of me. And yes, I know p.s. usually goes at the end. But it seemed appropriate here.) 😉
Here’s the thing that I am realizing. It will never work. running from God, running from yourself and who you were created to be. It will never work and you’ll never really be happy doing it. So no matter what it is that you’re afraid of – face it head on – God is big enough to handle it. At least that is what I am telling myself daily. As a matter of fact I think I am going to print that out and post it where I can see it daily, every minute of every day. We need to be reminded….daily.
That’s my two cents for the day.
Keep It Real – Daveda
BIO: Daveda Schmidlin is a happy wife, mother, and grandmother. She is a speaker, teacher, author and former pastor who is passionate about the Gospel of Grace. Her message is sincere, encouraging, simple and profound. Her words will set people free from condemnation and will help usher them into a deeper revelation and understanding of God’s great love.